Recently I have been quite noticeably absent. It hasn’t been because I am on a tropical island being served frozen drinks by my sexy boytoy Brendan Fraiser.
Instead after over a year of daily posts on 3 blogs and doing some freelance writing for a few collectives I reached an impasse. This site is created to “Be Peachy”, to remember that life is a journey not a job, to make people smile no matter the struggles or adversity at hand. The easiest way to put it out there for everyone to relate is the old adage, ” if you don’t have anything nice to say keep your mouth shut”, or in this case fingers off the keyboard.
So over the last couple of weeks/months I have had so many negative things that are just too hard to swallow in private let alone in a public setting. I opted to just voluntarily silence myself until I could work through a few things.
Today, instead of complaining no matter how worthy the situation is, I opt to be Thankful.
I am Thankful:
That I am here today, alive and breathing.
That I am not in a hospital today causing me to be separated from those I love and causing undo emotional and financial burden
That I live in a country where we can openly debate, write about whatever we want, and have discussions that may not be popular but are not criminal.
That I have 3 children who are relatively healthy and happy even if their journey is not the one I would have chosen for them.
That I have a husband who is there thick and thin, letting me be me, stupid, silly, in pj’s, and that accepts me as his friend.
That even though saying we are financially strapped would be a HUGE understatement, we will have food for dinner and will eat under our homes roof, at least 1 more day.
That my husband has a job.
That in general I have more good hours in week than bad.
That my youngest brought home a progress report with all A’s, and my oldest received her bachelors degree in the mail to my home so I can frame and hang it.
That my middle child is no longer missing, that I am not longer emailing pictures of him to law enforcement or outreach programs while crying several times a day.
That I have clean water to drink, a roof that does not leak, and luxuries such as the internet , and that my house is not flooded or damaged by the storms and fires wreaking havoc on several states in the US.
That I have the ability to hug my youngest child ever day.
That my oldest child chooses to return to our house a couple times a month and I can watch her become a grown woman I am in awe of.
That the internet has allowed me a wider selection of people to consider friends, even if I have never met them, and the ability to reach out to those that I knew long ago.
That hearing my amazing father or interesting mothers voice is only a phone call or 30 minute drive away.
That all of my loved ones are home and safe, while I know so many that worry hourly about their loved ones serving in a war in danger daily.
That I can see the colors of the sky, feel the wind on my face, hear a dog bark, and walk from room to room.
finally I am thankful for you, for being there, offering hugs, help, support, and laughter, you are all amazing..